Reading your post made me think of my original country. I am living in Turkey now but grew up and opted into the rat race of the UK. I never planned to settle in Turkey, it all happened quite by coincidence but your post made me realize that I am scared to go back to the UK, even just for a holiday.
Not been in seven, eight years now and the thought of going back fills me with fear for an unbeknown reason. I think it is because I just could not cope with the “perfect world” because every Brit that I came across ( holidaying in Turkey) is not happy with their perfect life.
I don’t know, you have really got me thinking now. Will have to come back later.