I understand this so much. About three years ago, my journal was read by someone without my permission. They ridiculed my writing and I felt ashamed. It was traumatising. I always find it hard to open up. I have wanted to write online for years but worry I will be ridiculed or people with think I am narcissistic for talking about life from my perspective. This is something I would like to work on, for sure… Thank you for posting this, as it allowed me to address something I’ve been holding on to for a while.