I enjoyed your prose and thoughts here, Raam.
I can relate, as a kid I used to trek across our dark yard on the farm to attend to chores, sometimes when dusk had fallen, and I remembered being scared out of my wits. I eventually surmounted that obstacle, too. 😉
I can also relate to your closing comments about writing. Yes, unlock those shackles and let your phalanges fly across that keyboard. (Love your writer voice, Raam.)