Is it possible you were so burnt by your past problems with money that in some way you’re running away from money? Just a thought I had.
You receive money for your dream. It’s interesting that you didn’t donate your money to other people’s dreams.
Could it be that you’re not sure if they’re serious or not? Could it be that what they were doing just didn’t impact upon your soul?
I’ve only donated to street performers once in my life. That was because what they did delighted me so much I was sad their performance ended. So I gave them some money as a gesture of my appreciation.