Change of heart? My heart doesn’t change quite so easily. There are a couple of things I’m certain about.
Wow, great post Phonexay. Absolutely amazing how everything you wrote about reflects my very thoughts. The only difference is, you wrote them down and I didn’t.
You know what I find really strange? I don’t know if you’ve noticed this, but we are always complete opposites in principals and thoughts.
I mean in a sense the way we change constantly.
When I became a vegan, you started eating meat. When you became vegan, i started eating unhealthy foods. When I started hanging out, you stopped hanging out. When ever you became health concious I became less health concious, lol
when you stopped wasting money, and buying cars, i started wasting money and buying cars, when i want to start buying properties you want to sell.
ok, now today, I thought to myself for the first time in a while, how i’ve really wasted the past five years of my life, and my thoughts immediately structurized… a window opened in my mind. And I saw would could be of the next five years.
since i was 11 or 12 I’ve always thought about the distant future, when i am 50, 60, 70, even into my centenial years and bicentenial years. I’ve always had an underlying thought, a sure future, that I would own and live on an island in new zealand or something, retire to a simple life of farming [and bodybuilding ;-)]. away from the world in peace and queit.
I’ve always seen this dream as easily attainable a sure future. but i’ve not been laying the foundation or the steps for this future, i realize that it is less sure than it always seemed, and still feels.
I still see the future, but i see it in several shades. I know that its not going to happen unless i get back onto that golden path i was on as a child.
so now after I’ve somewhat found a structured future again, you go ahead and say you’re unsure!
Wow, well don’t let my thoughts discourage your discoveries! It sounds like you’re discovering the path you were meant to travel, so travel it!
It’s so strange, all of this. I downloaded the first season of Hero’s (the TV show) and have been watching it for the past few hours. In the movie different people from different walks of life discover they are linked together by special powers. Strange how at the same time a similar discovery of links is happening through this post.
I get a strong enough “unsure” feeling that I feel compelled to write about it on my blog. I generally don’t bother writing something unless I can write a good amount, however this time I decided to just write whatever came to mind.
Phonexay, a few hours later, writes a long post basically on the same topic as me, but writes much more content. He pretty much explains everything I would have written had it come to my fingers. He also links back to an older post I wrote on finding the synergy between control and chaos.
Meanwhile, I’m watching as characters of Hero’s discover what they are doing is effecting others and the future.
Then you post about how we keep switching back and forth being opposite and how after finding your structured future I suddenly write a post saying I’m unsure.
woops i didnt read phonexay’s post, all i read was:
Maybe I should tell you something about me
And then you can learn from it. But,
Right now, all you need to know
Is I will be serving you day and
Night ’cause who I am is apparent if you open your
Eyes and see the answer in front of you.
and i actually read the chaos post just before you posted that comment.
I always get a kick of subtle connections. It’s like solving a mystery and when you find the answer, you can spoil it to everyone or be that “one” who seems to know where to guide you… because he already has the answer and he’s just not telling you. =)
I dislike that feeling when it comes to posting things. You want to say a lot, but then you’re like “naah”, and just pick up the guitar and play it instead. I guess sometimes it takes a little nudge from work stress to make things flow… I played the guitar for 3 straight hours too. It’s always awesome to vent frustration into creative inginuity.
Hmmmm…..Change of Heart Maybe?
You cure? Being around those who are happy without a plan!
http://www.xanga.com/Phonzmanh20/595563066/intuitive-fling.html
Doh… there’s supposed to be an ‘R’ after that ‘You’
Change of heart? My heart doesn’t change quite so easily. There are a couple of things I’m certain about.
Wow, great post Phonexay. Absolutely amazing how everything you wrote about reflects my very thoughts. The only difference is, you wrote them down and I didn’t.
Don’t go there.
These are some pretty obscure comments! 😀
You know what I find really strange? I don’t know if you’ve noticed this, but we are always complete opposites in principals and thoughts.
I mean in a sense the way we change constantly.
When I became a vegan, you started eating meat. When you became vegan, i started eating unhealthy foods. When I started hanging out, you stopped hanging out. When ever you became health concious I became less health concious, lol
when you stopped wasting money, and buying cars, i started wasting money and buying cars, when i want to start buying properties you want to sell.
ok, now today, I thought to myself for the first time in a while, how i’ve really wasted the past five years of my life, and my thoughts immediately structurized… a window opened in my mind. And I saw would could be of the next five years.
since i was 11 or 12 I’ve always thought about the distant future, when i am 50, 60, 70, even into my centenial years and bicentenial years. I’ve always had an underlying thought, a sure future, that I would own and live on an island in new zealand or something, retire to a simple life of farming [and bodybuilding ;-)]. away from the world in peace and queit.
I’ve always seen this dream as easily attainable a sure future. but i’ve not been laying the foundation or the steps for this future, i realize that it is less sure than it always seemed, and still feels.
I still see the future, but i see it in several shades. I know that its not going to happen unless i get back onto that golden path i was on as a child.
so now after I’ve somewhat found a structured future again, you go ahead and say you’re unsure!
Wow, well don’t let my thoughts discourage your discoveries! It sounds like you’re discovering the path you were meant to travel, so travel it!
It’s so strange, all of this. I downloaded the first season of Hero’s (the TV show) and have been watching it for the past few hours. In the movie different people from different walks of life discover they are linked together by special powers. Strange how at the same time a similar discovery of links is happening through this post.
um… sorry, you lost me… i’m not seeing connections, especially the heros thing
I get a strong enough “unsure” feeling that I feel compelled to write about it on my blog. I generally don’t bother writing something unless I can write a good amount, however this time I decided to just write whatever came to mind.
Phonexay, a few hours later, writes a long post basically on the same topic as me, but writes much more content. He pretty much explains everything I would have written had it come to my fingers. He also links back to an older post I wrote on finding the synergy between control and chaos.
Meanwhile, I’m watching as characters of Hero’s discover what they are doing is effecting others and the future.
Then you post about how we keep switching back and forth being opposite and how after finding your structured future I suddenly write a post saying I’m unsure.
woops i didnt read phonexay’s post, all i read was:
Maybe I should tell you something about me
And then you can learn from it. But,
Right now, all you need to know
Is I will be serving you day and
Night ’cause who I am is apparent if you open your
Eyes and see the answer in front of you.
and i actually read the chaos post just before you posted that comment.
I always get a kick of subtle connections. It’s like solving a mystery and when you find the answer, you can spoil it to everyone or be that “one” who seems to know where to guide you… because he already has the answer and he’s just not telling you. =)
I dislike that feeling when it comes to posting things. You want to say a lot, but then you’re like “naah”, and just pick up the guitar and play it instead. I guess sometimes it takes a little nudge from work stress to make things flow… I played the guitar for 3 straight hours too. It’s always awesome to vent frustration into creative inginuity.
Peace.
“I’ve never been more unsure about what I want out of life than I do right now”
Amen. But mine is with work / outside of the home life. As far as my life with my wife….. I’m sure of where it’s going.
Why couldn’t Indiana be closer to the east coast… 🙁