There are 2 posts tagged Atrophy (this is page 1 of 1).
I wish I was sweating, thighs aching, looking up a trail not knowing how much further I have to climb. Rationing my water for fear of not having enough for the way back down, while worrying about, with every step, spraining my ankle.
Instead, I'm sitting slouched in a chair in a room without windows, breathing stale used air and staring at a radiation emitting screen, feeling my leg muscles slowly atrophy.
I may as well be sitting in a wheelchair, watching TV, waiting for death.
I've been stuck in what feels like a rut, an endless loop of procrastination, confusion, and indecisiveness. If it sounds very much unlike me that's because it is. Perhaps it is so unfamiliar to me that I feel stuck and have a constant desire for change.
I crave the outdoors and yet I spend my days in the office, my evenings in a basement apartment with very little natural light and no ability to see the sky, and my weekends working inside on my rental properties or driving in the car. When I'm indoors I feel compelled to be sitting at my computer, whether for work or entertainment, because I refuse to hook up a television and although I have plenty of gym equipment, I've been finding it difficult to be motivated when I'm in a gloomy basement and the weather is beautiful outside.
I've been thinking seriously about finding a new apartment, one above ground and with plenty of windows, hoping that maybe that is what I need to satisfy my desire for natural light. But is that what I really need? I'm already 1 month behind on a house payment and I'm struggling to pay even the rent at my current apartment. Credit cards are already maxed with purchases from rental apartment repairs and the bills for everything else are slowly stacking up.
The constant repetitiveness of my daily routine of sitting in a chair, whether while work, at home, or while driving, is having an extreme negative effect on my posture and muscles. What amount of stretching and exercise can counter 12 hours of sitting in a chair if I plan to get 6 hours of sleep and spend 4 hours doing other daily activities? How can 2 hours of exercise and stretching counter 18 hours of near immobility?
I've been sitting outside on a public sidewalk bench typing this entire post on my Blackberry. I had to get outside, regardless of what I was going to do outside, I just needed to get out. I can think more clearly when I'm outside. Maybe I should start a time journal to keep track of exactly where all my time goes. Then after one month review the journal and look for patterns of wasted or ill spent time and change them.
I need to start, no... I'm going to start some type of daily, outdoor activity; preferably one physical enough to be called exercise. I'm also going to get back on my three day a week lifting routine.
