What the hell am I doing?

Today marks the first day in ten years that I am without my own place. When I moved out of my parents house at the age of 17, my dreams of traveling the world and living a nomadic lifestyle were quickly confronted by real-world challenges.

Eight apartments, three houses, five jobs, seven cars, and one bankruptcy later and now I'm back to owning almost nothing, with plenty of real-world mistakes under my belt. However, thanks to my unwavering stubbornness I never lost sight of those dreams; I never gave up believing they were possible. I always knew it was not a matter of "if" but a matter of "when".

I knew this point in my life would come eventually, but I never took the initiative to decide when things would start changing. Now, after taking those first steps early last month, I'm on track to becoming a nomadic world traveler and living my lifelong dream.

I've quit my job, left my apartment, sold most of my possessions, and told everyone I know that I'm leaving for India in less than two months to become a nomad.

As I packed up the remainder of my stuff and left the apartment that I have called home for the past six months, a voice in my head asked for the first time, "What the hell are you doing?".

I'll tell you what I'm doing. I'm breaking free from the norm, from the 9-to-5 rat race and the "wait until you're old to retire and enjoy life" routine. I'm taking life into my own hands and jumping off the bandwagon to blaze my own trail through the wilderness of life. I'm choosing to take full responsiblity for my own life and accept great risk and unpredictablity in return for the chance to live an extraordinary life.

I can not and will not simply sit back and hope for change -- hope that my life turns out amazing. No! That would be taking a far greater risk. I would be giving up. I would be wasting this fantastic opportunity that is life.

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  1. From watching your life thru the web for the past few years…. I’m sure you’ll soar……. 😀 And as I’ve said so many times before, I’ll be reading your journey here and looking forward to every step you take as I sit here waiting for my retirement 🙁
    Best wishes to you, my friend.

    • Thanks DJT! Much appreciated! 🙂

      As long as you’re enjoying live in the moment, that’s what matters. If you’re not, then figure out what needs to change and work towards changing it!

  2. Eventually one realizes life is an inner journey. Consciousness itself is the final frontier and there is no limit to it. The mind and body are instruments of consciousness (Atman, soul). Their purpose is for exploration, Self-discovery, and self-evolvement. The final refinement of the mind culminates in complete selflessness. Your Real Self is egoless, all-knowing, all-loving, and ever-full (complete). You are self-contained and immortal. Nothing can make you any more or less than that.

    It is the mind that wonders, wavers, wishes, waxes and wanes. When the mind is conquered, you have conquered the whole universe: when we overcome our small self we realize the Self. It is a process. You are in the process; I am in the process. Our lives are ‘work in progress.’ Our duty is to continue make progress in the ‘right direction.’ The right direction is the inner path, because that path is lit insights which guide us to Self-realization. The one who is outward bound is ‘lost and never found.’ Many people have traveled the journey of life but never reached their destination—their lives were spent in the pursuit of personality-glorification and ego-gratification, and they passed away without ever connecting to the Real, hence, they forget and are forgotten. Few people have the guts (and heart) to go beyond their own small self and completely shed the façade of ego-mentality. When they do, they get a glimpse of Ultimate Reality and never forget it (because it’s not something they remember: forgetting and remembering are states of mind, but the state of Being is beyond the mind).

    Remember: the mind and body are your tools; use them wisely, carefully, efficiently, and creatively. The Wise do not unnecessarily but their life in jeopardy, even as a musician is not careless or reckless with his instrument. Create beauty in your life. You are a beautiful soul. OM

    • Thanks dad!

      I am on an “inner path”, not an outward-bound one. The outward-bound path is just an enabler, a fresh perspective, a way to provide insightful value to others and help them make similar lifestyle changes.

  3. To borrow a couple from the /b/tards (and to paraphrase the previous comment … tl;dr), you’re doing it right. A winrar is you!

    Good luck out there, kiddo. I’ll keep coming up with interesting toys for you to check out in the meantime 🙂

  4. You, my dear, are changing the world in millions of butterfly effects and probably causing change far beyond the furthest star…

    Never thought *this* would happen, eh? The sheer power of manifestation is …I have no words and need none. 🙂